Match Meeting

Well, we flew out to L.A. on Friday and met the guys.  They were great.  Very nice, great sense of humor.  I can't wait to start this journey with them.  The match meeting lasted about an hour and we just talked basicly about ourselves and why we chose surrogacy and all the other basic stuff that was already in our profiles.  Then we left and they did an excellent job of showing us around the city since they live in L.A.  They took us to see the Hollywood stars and we got lots of pictures.  Then they took us up the mountain to this great spot so that I could get a good picture of the Hollywood sign.  It was beautiful up there, you could see all the way to the city, but the road to get there was ridiculous.  It was very narrow and very curvy and there are cars parked all over the sides of the road.  I don't see how people live on those roads, that would drive me nuts.  I guess that's why most of the people over there drive little cars.  There's no way I could have done it in my Explorer especially if there was another car coming the other way.  Then they took us out to eat at a very good Italian restaurant.  I eat chicken parm all the time, that's usually what I get at Italian restaurants.  This was the best chicken parm I have ever had!  It was delicious.  After dinner they took us back to the hotel.  Tommy and I ended up going up to the Groove that night and eating at the Cheesecake Factory since we didn't get to last time.  OMG it was amazing!  We only went up there for desert b/c we thought that was all they had and we had already at dinner.  Turns out they have a FULL menu.  They have pizza, pasta, salads, burgers, steaks, burritos, seafood and everything in between, plus a full bar and of course plenty of cheesecake.  I got the carrot cake cheesecake and OMG...heaven!  I am a big carrot cake lover and this was just the best cheesecake ever.  We ended up going back the next day for lunch and I got the white chocolate macadamia nut cheesecake and Tommy had the snickers cheesecake.  They were both very good but still not as good as my carrot cake cheesecake.  So after lunch we went to the Santimonica Pier.  It was beautiful.  The beach was huge, much bigger than the beaches in Florida that I've been to and the sand was much softer, not as full of shells.  But it was also harder to walk on b/c you sink into it when you walk.  I felt like I need snow shoes on.  And the water was freezing.  I was not expecting that.  S said it's always like that, it's b/c the water comes down from Alaska.  We hung out at the pier for a while and looked all around and ate dinner at Bubba Gumps Shrimp Co which was delicious.  I got the fish and chips but their fish and chips was Mahi Mahi, not cod or flounder or something like that like it is here.  After dinner we went back to the airport and came home.  It is a long, butt numbing ride and I was in the middle of the plane both times.  I hated it.  It was the first time I have ever not been by the window.  It made me a little dizzy and nauseous not being able to see out the window.  Next time they are scheduling my flight I will make sure they get me a window seat.

The Talk

Ok, so I talked to my mom and dad yesterday for the first time since I told them about which couple I decided to go with.  When I told my dad the other day he was completely freaking out but he's fine now.  I wrote him a letter the other day telling him about the couple and why I chose them and all that good stuff and I sent him a copy of the guy's profile so I guess that helped.  I think he was just really in shock after I told him but he's calmed down now and had time to process everything so he's ok.  My mom on the other hand is still mad about it but she's not the type to scream and yell and cuss like my dad (thank god).  She just doesn't understand why I chose them and I tried to explain it to her but it seems to just go in one ear and out the other.  Oh well, I guess one out of two ain't bad.  Hopefully mom will come around to the idea sooner or later.  I am still not planning on telling anyone else that we are going with a gay couple.  I have just decided to save myself the headache b/c you never know how people are going to react.  We are flying out to L.A. on Friday to meet the guys and I can't wait.  Hopefully we will get to spend a good bit of time with them while we are there.  I would like to be able to meet some of their family also.  They live in L.A. so hopefully that won't be a problem.  I would also love to be able to go to the beach this time while we are over there and actually do more than just sit in a hotel room then fly back early the next morning.

Don't know how I'm going to do this

God give me the strength to do this.  I told my dad about the surrogacy and that I am going with a gay couple and he FREAKED out!  There was a lot of cussing and disbelief before he hung up on me.  But the part that hit me the hardest was when he said that he was actually proud of me until he heard that and that he definately wouldn't be repeating it or telling anyone.  He thinks I have completely lost my mind.  If this is how people are going to act when I tell them, I don't plan on telling anyone else.  :'(  I know in my heart that this is the right thing.  I don't know why people are so judgemental.  I just want to move far far away from everyone right now.

Great News

Well I've got some great news.  The guys loved our profile and have agreed to do the surrogacy with us.  Yay!!!  You know how you feel when you ride one of those big roller coasters and you get to the top and you can see the drop and you say, "Here we go!".  That's how I feel.  It's like I finally made it to the top and now I'm like "Here we go!"  I'm so excited.  Hopefully we will be meeting with the guys in a week or two.  Can't wait to meet them.  Still haven't decided what I am going to do about telling everyone.  Oh well, I'll figure it out I guess.

Happy

Ok, I think we have decided on a couple.  YAY!!!  We have 3 profiles to choose from.  A couple from Norway, a single woman who lives in NY and a gay couple (guys) that live in L.A.  I think we are going to go with the gay couple.  They seem like really great guys and they have a great support system with all their family and friends.  They are very close to their family and one of the guy's sister is going to donate her egg and they are going to use the other IF's (intended father) sperm so the baby will be geneticly linked to both of them.  I thought that was pretty cool.  Also, one of the IF's moms is going to move in with them for the first year after the baby is born to help them out.  She also did this with each of her other 4 children after they had their first baby.  I just think they are an amazing family all around and I can't wait to meet them.  I am aware that the choice to do a surrogacy for a gay couple won't sit too well with some of my family and friends but I have really thought about this a lot and this is something I really want to do.  Starting this surrogacy was something I wanted to do to make me happy and to help other people have a family.  I am not doing this to make all my family and friends happy and nor will I ever be able to make everyone happy.  So, I am just going to go with my gut and do what I feel is right and make myself happy and if anyone else has a problem with that it's not my fault.

APPROVED!!!

Well, I got my test results back today from the blood work and everything and I am 100% approved and ready to move forward.  YAY!!!  I am so excited!  The only thing left to do is pick a couple.  I have 2 profiles right now and I will discuss them with my husband tomorrow and try to decide which one to go with.  One of them is a single woman  who lives in NY and the other is a couple that lives in Norway.  I was really wanting to do a couple but I was also wanting someone who lives in the U.S. so idk.  I'm still kinda leaning towards the couple.  I guess we can still phone and e-mail just as easily as if they were living in the U.S. so it doesn't really make that big of a difference.  Did I mention I was excited?  OMG I AM SO FRIGGIN EXCITED!!!!!!!!  I can't wait to get started and to meet the couple.  The only thing that I am kinda worried about is that the transfer won't "stick".  I have heard a lot of horror stories about people having to have it done multiple times and having a really hard time with it and I just hope everything goes ok, for my sake and the IPs.

Nauseous

Ok, these birthcontrol pills are making me nauseous!  I wish they would hurry up and send me some profiles to look at.  They have been out of the office this week at a training class but will be back in the office tomorrow.  YAY!!!  I hate waiting.  I am ready to get started on this stuff.  But after I get signed with a couple I will have to start taking shots, not sure if that is at the same time as I'm taking the birthcontrol or not.  Hopefully not.  Then comes the nausea from the pregnancy.  ugh....  It will all be worth it in the end though, when we have a beautiful baby for someone.